Angel

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When he thought back to Abernathy, one of the evening dates that came to mind was when she had taken him to an ice cream shop. He could actually eat and taste things, although his ability was a bit muted compared to humans. He had actually let her order for him, since he had no idea what to pick for himself. She had picked a hot fudge Sunday for them to split, ordering one of the larger sizes.

“Hey, want to see a trick that my sister taught me?” Abernathy asked.

Dear lord. Who knew what it was that she would show him. “Go ahead,” Angel said to her.

She popped the cherry stem off the cherry and dropped it into her mouth, seemingly swirling it around in her mouth for a minute before plucking it back out of her mouth, holding it up for him to see.

“You tied it in a knot,” he commented, staring at it.

“Yep. TJ loves doing it to get people drooling in clubs,” Abernathy said with a giggle.

“I can see why.” If he was a teenager, his voice would have cracked right then. It was amazing just how one little thing like a cherry stem could make it so that he couldn’t even stand up for quite some time.

The smell of her was intoxicating to him. He could barely be in the same room as Buffy without nearly overdosing on her scent. Not the perfumes that she wore, or the shampoo that she washed her hair with, but the deeper, more natural scent that both told him slayer and Buffy that filled his nostrils whenever he was anywhere near her.

He could drown in her scent. Right now, pressed up against her in an alley, kissing her, he thought that he just might. He burned with an intensity for her that he couldn’t even describe. He’d never understand why he wanted and needed her so bad, but it was something that he was now certain that he’d never get rid of.

Even if it killed him to still love and want her the way that he did.

Even though he had said that he was perfectly fine with Buffy dating that other guy, he knew, deep down, that it wasn’t true. Even when he tried seeing someone else, he realized that he’d ALWAYS feel some sort of possessiveness over her. She was the first person that he’d ever loved. He knew that it was a bad idea to still harbor feelings for her. When they were together, nothing good ever seemed to come of it. There was soul losing and all sorts of awful things that might happen.

Plus, now he had Cordy, and the guarantee that he wouldn’t lose his soul if he was with her. He should be happy. In most ways, he WAS happy with it. However, every time he saw her with that kid he wanted to grab Rain by the neck and strangle the life out of him. She could just…he felt like she could do so much better. He knew that he was going to feel that way about anyone she dated, though. Anyone who wasn’t him. He had said that she should move on, though. So, for now, the only thing he could do was admire from afar, even as he was with someone else.

When Abernathy had called Angel and told him that her parents were sending her off to a school on the east coast, he was incensed, angry, pissed off, any other synonym that you’d like to come up with, he was it. He was ready to tear her parents to pieces because they had sent Abernathy away from him. As if a simple move could keep him away from her. He had been completely prepared to simply get up and drive his car to her school and take her out the window.

She had convinced him otherwise, though. She had said that she wanted to ‘respect her parents’ wishes.’ He had actually asked if he had done something wrong. She had tried to tell him that it wasn’t him, that she was still young and she didn’t want to alienate her parents by running off with him. He had hung up and just…collapsed. He had thought that she loved him. Of course she did, he got that, but he realized that she didn’t love him enough. He completely understood everything logically, and understood where she was coming from.

He was still completely crushed, though. He was alone again. Maybe he really was destined to be alone forever.

The Character Expression Meme
Character: Angel
Journal: angelic_liam
RPG: btvsal

.happy.	.sad.	.angry.	.scared.
.disgusted.	.surprised.	.flirty.	.sexual.
.confused.	.shy.	.playful.	.rage.
.hurt.	.guilty.	.bored.	.laughing.
.sarcastic.	.tired.	.wtf.	.pride.
.sympathy.	.evil.	.innocent.	.in love.
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